I stumbled across this picture the other day (as you may have seen on my facebook page) and honest to goodness, my first thought was "I HAVE to blog about this." It has been a long time since I have felt that strongly about needing to get my thoughts out and I think this is all part of my overall "acceptance" of things. I need top keep moving forward and finding the things that I can own, that I can hold myself to, and these two ah-may-zing blogs I am fortunate to be a part of, both Waits and Measure(ments)s and The Journey, allow me to do that.
I have challenged myself this year to do right by ME. I took the time (and bravery) to take physical measurements and put them out there to all of you. Numbers in print that can't be taken back...well, I mean I could delete the post but we all know once its in cyberspace it is there forever. I have been working through the pain in my hip, I have been trying to focus. The past few months have been hard. My who-knows-why-my -hip-hurts chronic pain, yep I said chronic. Did you know that if you suffer from pain for more than six weeks it's considered chronic? I didn't until my doc told me. My poor husband with his back pain that turns out to be not one but TWO herniated discs and just keeps plugging away as best he can. The winter blues, thee kids activities, life in general. It's so easy to get bogged down, and that is not good. It (at least for me) leads to feeling blue and that leads to overeating which leads to guilt which leads to more eating, which ultimately leads to your pants feeling just THAT much to tight. I know, I have been living it.
I was feeling puffy and gross and shameful for allowing myself to get this way. How does someone who writes for not one but TWO health focused blogs spiral down like this? Could you feel my shame, I mean, I fell off the face of the earth with my blogging. I wanted to disappear, but I didn't. My family inspired me, as they always seem to do.
When my hubby and I went to see the kinesiologist we found the reason for my hip pain, at least part of it...bad foot. Crazy I know, but the doc gave me an orthotic insert and I felt relief for the first time in a long time. While there, both the hubs and I took a nutrition survey for toxicity. WOW was I shocked. I mean, I know that we don't always eat what we should, I know that I don't exercise as much as I should...but there is SO much more than that when figuring out why you feel the way you do. The survey covered topics like: digestion, ears, emotions, energy, weight, head, skin...to name a few. It asked about our risk exposure ton things like household chemicals, pesticides, and pets. Once we finished, after picking my jaw up from the floor, I knew it was time to do something about it.
We took home the detox cleans the doc suggested and read through what we needed to do and decided to get started. This was all before the herniated discs were actually diagnosed...just severe pain for my poor hubby. It got to the point where he knew after
no relief came from the AK doc that he needed to see someone how would help with the pain. With that in mind, we decided to put the cleans eon the back burner for a few (who wants to cleanse pain meds out when you feel as awful as he does).
Fast forward a few weeks and we are on the long wait to see thew spinal surgeon, so meds are in place for a while. Dear hubby encouraged me to go ahead and start the cleanse, he can always do later. So I do...I can't even begin to tell you how much better I felt after just a few days. The puffiness and bloating I'd been carrying in my midsection is gone. My hubs even said my face looked less puffy and more sculpted like it used to. I got complimented at work by someone who said I looked as though I was"glowing". All of this from detoxing?!?! I mean, I wont get into the details but my little 5'2 frame was really holding onto a lot of stuff it shouldn't have been.
So as I am progressing, my hubby goes to see a pain management doc. The pain management doc is having him wait on pain blockers until he tries some water therapy...ok, at least we have something in place now. I am feeling pretty good at this point but still not getting back on the workout trail. Do you ever feel guilty for working out when someone else can't? My hubby has ALWAYS been my workout buddy. He pushes me to keep going, keep getting stronger, and with him WANTING to work out and not being able to I felt as though I couldn't or at least shouldn't enjoy those endorphins without him. And because he knows me so well, he knew I was stalling.
He told me that I was NOT to wait for him, that if he was able he'd be working out everyday, and I know he means it. So I hit the mat. I am aiming high too for just really coming back. I figure February is a short month so why not try to do SOMETHING everyday. Whether its walking, a full on cardio or strength workout...whatever....as long as its something! AND even better, PT has encouraged swimming for the hubs, its supposed to be a great way to workout with herniated discs s o he is re-upping the rec membership so he can start to swim and try and get himself back on track and stronger and more fit wile still dealing with this pain.
Its funny because I have really only been out of my routine for about 6-8 weeks which in the grand scheme isn't a lot, but even with the setbacks I must have been doing something right. My kiddos (well the little one at least) actually will sit and watch and CHEER for me as I burn those calories,
and then they hit the mat together too. They know the importance of it.
|the girls doing a little yoga together :)|